This is not the end,  
This is not the beginning, 
Just a voice like a riot  
Rocking every revision  
But you listen to the tone 
And the violent rhythm,  
Though the words sound steady,  
Something empty's within 'em,
 
We say "Yeah!"  
With fists flying up in the air, 
Like we're holding onto something  
That's invisible there, 
'Cause we're living at the mercy of  
The pain and the fear 
Until we dead it, forget it, 
Let it all disappear.
 
Waiting for the end to come...  
Wishing I had strength to stand...  
This is not what I had planned... 
It's out of my control....
 
Flying at the speed of light, 
Thoughts were spinning in my head. 
So many things were left unsaid. 
It's hard to let you go...
  
(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on, 
I know how it feels to lie,  
All I wanna do 
Is trade this life for something new,  
 Holding on to what I haven't got
 
Sitting in an empty room  
Trying to forget the past  
This was never meant to last,  
I wish it wasn't so...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on, 
I know how it feels to lie,  
All I wanna do 
Is trade this life for something new 
Holding on to what I haven't got!
 
What was left when the fire was gone? 
I thought I found right but that right was wrong.  
All caught up in the eye of the storm. 
I'm trying to figure out what it's like - moving on.  
And I don't even know what kind of things I've said,  
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead. 
So picking up the pieces, now, where to begin? 
The hardest part of ending is starting all again.
 
All I wanna do 
Is trade this life for something new,  
Holding on to what i haven't got!..
 
This is not the end,  
This is not the beginning, 
Just a voice like a riot 
Rocking every revision  
But you listen to the tone  
And the violet rhythm,  
Though the words sound steady,  
Something empty's within 'em 
(Holding on to what I haven't got!)
 
We say "Yeah!" 
With fists flying up in the air,  
Like we're holding onto something  
That's invisible there, 
'Cause we're living at the mercy of  
The pain and the fear 
Until we get it, forget it,  
Let it all disappear!  
(Holding on to what I haven't got!)

How she wishes it was different

Oh look at how she listens
She says nothing of what she thinks
She just goes stumbling through her memories
Staring out on to Grey Street

She thinks, “Hey,
How did I come to this?
I dream myself a thousand times around the world,
But I can’t get out of this place”

There’s an emptiness inside her
And she’d do anything to fill it in
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart

How she wishes it was different
She prays to God most every night
And though she swears it doesn’t listen
There’s still a hope in her it might

She says, “I pray
But they fall on deaf ears,
Am I supposed to take it on myself?
To get out of this place”

There’s loneliness inside her
And she’d do anything to fill it in
And though it’s red blood bleeding from her now
It feels like cold blue ice in her heart
When all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart

There’s a stranger speaks outside her door
Says take what you can from your dreams
Make them as real as anything
It’d take the work out of the courage

But she says, “Please
There’s a crazy man that’s creeping outside my door,
I live on the corner of Grey Street and the end of the world”

There’s an emptiness inside her
And she’d do anything to fill it in
And though it’s red blood bleeding from her now
It’s more like cold blue ice in her heart
She feels like kicking out all the windows 
And setting fire to this life
She could change everything about her using colors bold and bright 
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart
It breaks her heart
To grey

Recomeça

RECOMEÇA…

Se puderes

Sem angústia

E sem pressa.

E os passos que deres,

Nesse caminho duro

Do futuro

Dá-os em liberdade.

Enquanto não alcances

Não descanses.

De nenhum fruto queiras só metade.

E, nunca saciado,

Vai colhendo ilusões sucessivas no pomar.

Sempre a sonhar e vendo

O logro da aventura.

És homem, não te esqueças!

Só é tua a loucura

Onde, com lucidez, te reconheças…

Miguel Torga

Para memória futura

Then slowly, over time, everything changes. And you're no longer this young thing, and you don't believe in fairytales and "perfect" isn't in your vocabulary. 

And then suddenly, here is this man and he becomes so familiar to you that one day you find yourself looking at him thinking I could love this person for the rest of my life. 

Addison, Private Practice

Substituir Addison por Ana...

Jovanotti - Io ti Cercheró

Come è strano incontrarti di sera 

In mezzo alla gente 

Salutarci come due vecchi amici 

Ehi ciao come stai

Quando un giorno di notte m'hai detto 

"Non ti lascerò mai" 

Quando un giorno di notte t'ho detto 

"Non ti lascerò mai" 

E adesso siamo occhi negli occhi 

E non serve a niente parlare 

Ho la mappa di tutti i tuoi nei 

Io la potrei disegnare

Nei tuoi occhi ritrovo i miei giorni 

Di qualche anno fa 

Le domeniche senza far niente 

E voglia di sincerità, 

Parliamo un po' 

Raccontami quello che fai 

sei la stessa che un giorno m'ha detto 

"Non ti lascerò mai" 

Quando un giorno di notte m'hai detto 

"Non ti lascerò mai" 

Quando un giorno di notte t'ho detto 

"Non ti lascerò mai"

Io ti cercherò negli occhi delle donne 

Che nel mondo incontrerò 

E dentro quegli sguardi mi ricorderò di noi 

Chissà se si chiamava amore. 

Nei tuoi occhi mi ritrovo nell'attimo prima 

In cui sto per baciarti 

L'universo si ferma un'istante 

Perché vuole ammirarti

Tutto il resto mi passa alle mani 

Come la sabbia del mare 

Resta solo un diamante che brilla 

E che continua a brillare

Ogni volta che mi torni in mente 

Continua a brillare 

In un angolo della mia mente 

Ti continuo ad amare. 

Io ti cercherò 

Negli occhi delle donne 

Che nel mondo incontrerò 

E dentro quegli sguardi 

Mi ricorderò di noi 

Chissà se si chiamava amore

Diz tudo, neste momento...

Daqui. Obrigado PR!

Pearl Jam - Come Back

If I keep holding outWill the light shine throughUnder this broken roofIts only rain that I feelIve been wishing out the daysOhh ohh oh come back

I have been planning outAll that I'd say to youSince you slipped awayKnow that I still remain trueIve been wishing out the daysPlease say that if you hadnt gone nowI wouldnt have lost you another wayFrom wherever you areOhhhh ohh ohh oh oh come back

And these days they linger onAnd in the night ive been waiting forThe real possibility that I may meet you in my dreamsI go to sleepIf i dont fall apart, Will my memory stay clearSo you had to go, And I had to remain here

But the strangest thing todaySo far away and yet you feel so closeAnd Im not gonna question any other wayThere must be an open doorFor you uhh uhh uhh.... To come back

And the days they linger onAnd every night when Im waiting forThe real possibility that I may meet you in my dreamsSometimes you're there and you're talking back to meCome the morning I can swear that you're next to meAnd its okayyyyyy

Its ok...its ok
I need you come back, come backI need you come back, come backI need you come back, come back

Sim, isto diz tudo neste momento! 3:38... 
It's still there an open door. I know it!!!

Coldplay - Amsterdam

Come on, oh my star is fading 
And I swerve out of control
If I, if I'd only waited
I'd not be stuck here in this hole 

Come here, oh my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
And I swear I waited and waited
I've got to get out of this hole

But time is on your side
It's on your side now
Not pushing you down and all around
It's no cause for concern

Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath

And time is on your side
Is on your side; It's on your side now
Not pushing you down, and all around
No it's no cause for concern

Stuck on the end of this ball and chain
And I'm on my way back down again
Stood on a bridge, tied to the noose
Sick to the stomach
You can say what you mean
But it won't change a thing
I'm sick of the secrets
Stood on the edge, tied to the noose

You came along and you cut me loose
You came along and you cut me loose
You came along and you cut me loose

This resumes all...

Difícíl?

Será difícil ver-me pelo que sou, pelo que dou e posso dar do que por aquilo que se espera e não se tem?
Será difícil ignorares o que sinto por ti? O que sempre senti e que, com tempo, foi crescendo exponencialmente?

Não me enganei e não me engano quando sinto que és a mulher da minha vida, A.

Não mereço isto... Não mereces isto... Não merecemos isto...

Sentimento disperso

Este deveria ser o título actual deste blogue. Sentimentos dispersos... Tão dispersos que nem sei o que escrever, não sei o que partilhar. Já bastava ter assim a mente...

Sinto-me pequeno e esmagado pelo que sinto, pelo que queria sentir mas não estava preparado para sentir. Muito menos sentí-lo desta forma, com um sentimento de perda tão forte... único até agora!

A cada momento que passa, isto corroi-me por dentro, faz desiquilibrar-me duma forma como nunca antes. Há apenas um antidoto, o qual não posso por mim próprio utilizar! O resto é o tempo.... Quanto tempo?

Estou numa corda entre um desfiladeiro a dezenas de metros do chão, bem pra lá da partida e muito antes de chegar ao fim, in the point of no return...

Quanto tempo manterei o equilíbrio mínimo para me manter em pé?